Full on Rant

Most of my writings are reserved for my personal hand written journal. One I hope to burn before I die so that it doesn't fall into the hands of some innocent bystander. I do occasionally wish to share a funny story, an inspiring thought or a bitter rant. Today is a rant kind of day. Actually, a slight twist on a typical rant. I had an ex-husband kind of morning. The kind you want to bury and never see again. But this one literally was an ex-husband morning. As I was fuming to myself (out loud) in the shower I got soap in my eye. Full on crisis. Fire in my eye, trying not to wash my last contact down the drain, or slip and fall out of the shower it hit me- Karma. I know that some of you don't believe in Karma and that's okay, but when it gouges you in the eye whilst naked in the shower you can't deny it exists. My ex sucks, but that is why he's my ex and I'm happy. I needed to focus on being happy. Apparently he called me a spoiled princess to my kids this morning and they, as always, felt compelled to share with me. I was furious, I'm not spoiled! I have a small house, modest car, haven't bought anything new for myself in years and don't even remember my last haircut! How dare him?! But as I viciously rubbed my burning eye in that steamy shower I realized, I'm good. I love my simple house. My simple life. I am blessed beyond measure to have a home, to have a car-one that runs! They could be bigger or better but they are perfect for now. And I may not have new shoes every week but I love shopping at thrift stores and finding a great deal or something that I can alter and make my own. And yes my kids are a little spoiled by some standards but I'm blessed to be in a situation to spoil them. If all of this means that I'm a princess then move over Kate, this foul mouthed, often inappropriate girl is taking that crown! I choose to focus on my blessings instead of the ways I'm "not a princess". I don't have to be bitter. I can choose to be happy. And I do... well... I did, after I sent him my thoughts and feelings via text message...